On Tuesday evening I found myself in Central London getting ready to give an 20 minute talk on developmental assessments. I did the same talk last year.
I sometimes find it amusing that very thing that I am encouraging candidates to avoid, I am guilty of feeling myself. So I am nervous, anxious and tongue-tied. My head is spinning and I feel like a rabbit in the headlights. However I rapidly manage to compose myself. I remember that this is my job and that I do this every day.
So I give my talk and I am relieved when it is all over. I know not why I should feel this way but it does not stop me volunteering to do these things. I see it as a challenge, a way of pushing myself out of my comfort zone, confronting my fears.
I hope that I am continuously improving my presentation skills. I hope that I getting a better understanding of the worries and fears of candidates who are about to sit the exam. I hope to be better at providing clear information. The proof of the pudding will soon be made public. As ever I will be subject to peer review in the form of survey monkey/feedback forms. Another nerve-wracking wait – was I good enough?