What does authenticity mean to you? How do you feel right now, in this moment? When you identify how you feel, do you judge it? Is there a “should” that arises, like “I should be happier” or “I should be reading that book”? If so, explore that. Dig into the areas of your self that you’re afraid to embrace or show. The best writing comes from a place of honesty and vulnerability because it shows us what we’re all thinking, but are afraid to say. That kind of bravery is what builds friendships, communities, and ideas. Be authentic, radically so.
Who are you when nobody is watching? Why are you hiding your true self? Why do you allow yourself to be defined by what you think other people are thinking of you? You must of course be aware that the reverse is not true?
Try to imagine for a minute or so, but feel free to take longer, what your life would have been like if you had not been chasing an impossible dream/standard/aspiration. Try to imagine what your life would have been like if you had said ‘yes’ instead of ‘no’, if you had said ‘no’ instead of ‘yes’. Try to imagine if you had chosen boldness over fear.
Try to imagine what life would be like if you woke up in the morning and your actions where directed by your needs and not the needs and whims of others. Imagine if you followed your purpose and your dream. Imagine if you stopped worrying about meeting the rather nebulous expectations of others and set your own expectations and standards and started walking down that track inside.
Try being generous with yourself, instead of being mean about giving yourself the things that you need and deserve. Try exerting some self compassion. Try walking with dignity.
Why would you eat food that you do not like? Why would you wear clothes you do not like? Why would you try not to be comfortable in your own skin?