This weeks photo challenge reminded of this picture that I took randomly in a car park last weekend.
It reminded me of moving forward.
It somehow seems that I am at this weird place in life – I need to make changes.
I am not sure what to do.
Trying to please everybody people and end up pleasing none and upsetting all, including myself.
The simplest answer is “to be true to myself”.
I am finding that that is easier said than done.
Especially when essentially I do not know what I want.
Especially when I do not like conflict and confrontation.
There in lies the biggest probem.
I do not know how to work that out. It’s as if I cannot defend myself.
“Make a decision and stick to it!”
Technically being a Christian – that should be easy – prayer and read the Bible and wait on God.
Sometimes I think that I hold faith and doubt in both hands with equal measure.
It is then that I am reminded of a verse in James:
“If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him.
But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind.
For that person must not suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.” James 1:5-8
It makes for very uncomfortable reading and not something I really know how to handle.
So I guess I will in the end – just have to “press on”, one day at time.
I will have remind myself that I am “mature”adult, face facts and deal with things and try to make sensible choices.
Onwards and upward and forward!
I have added this link – because I somehow like the lyrics.
“Love like a river”
Rivers flow forward…